I hate goodbyes, yet I divulge myself to the idea that everyone’s going to leave, and that’s what I fear the most. For some reason I couldn’t fathom, I realized we came this far. It’s inevitable and it happened in a snap of time.
“Now you’re in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you”
Those are words that I used to hear from an Alicia Keys song that was popular when I was in grade school. A song so familiar, that I could sing when played on the radio. I never really bother to read the lyrics or ponder about its meaning. Like any other Korean song, I just liked its tune that I memorized the song without really knowing it.
It was only a song… until I went to New York.
Once in a year, my family and I book our tickets and pack our bags to travel to new places and meet new people. While last year we went back to the Philippines, this time, we went to the USA. Yes! I haven’t been to the States, but since we got our Canadian passports already, we went to Canada’s closest ally.
We pretty much went to 8 states, but only get to spend our time in Boston, New York, New Jersey, Washington D.C and Pennsylvania. While we had stopovers in some states, I couldn’t get up and figure out our location because I am always sleepy and nauseous whenever I am a passenger in any vehicle. Yikes!
According to my favourite celebrity blogger, Nikki Gil, when traveling there must be a common purpose for the trip. That said, for our Boston trip, we decided to shop right away- it is always easier to save than to regret especially for once in a lifetime journey.
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Love – a four letter word that is most commonly used, with so many meanings and stories in it. While David Levithan defined love in one of his books as something not worth trying (based on how I understood it). I find love worth risking; it is worth all the time in the world that I wouldn’t mind getting it wrong because I can love more than once, yet to only find the best one in the finish line.
I cannot believe how much I’ve grown. By that, I meant to age.
As I write this blog, I cannot believe I’m already 23 and teenage years have gone by me. Yes! I am this old.
Growing old is something that I wanted to happen when I was 18; to take on responsibilities, have freedom and get all the things I want.
Taking pictures is another way of saying you want to savour life at the moment because when time passed by on you, we’re lucky if we are given a chance to go back and re-do it, but most of the time it does not happen. While scrapbooking is considered one of any granny’s habits along with knitting and gardening, me, on the other hand, have learned scrapbooking during grade-school. In my young age, I learned to value time and experiences which are the reasons why even up to now; I have something to look back and show to my future kids/family. I don’t know why, but somehow I feel like I’ll forget everything and one-day pictures are my reminders that I lived my life the way I wanted it to be.
Due to my tight academic & work schedule, I am not able to make any reviews of the following books, however when given a chance I will try to write a book review about them.
I would like to be a living testament how wonderful God’s love is and how His love never fails. He has always been a listener, but these past few days it occurred to me how He puts things in order according to His plans and will for us.
I’ve always been questioning the struggles I have been going through for the past two years, which put me under a constant tremendous amount of stress, trying to survive and make it through the obstacles He wanted me to face. I am just so glad and blessed that after all the wait, tears, hormonal imbalance- I could proudly say with His will and guidance, I made it! Like a movie that started with a not so well plot, I’ve survived the turning point and could at least see a better view of the ending I want to see. I know there’s still a long way to go, but I have braced myself with faith in God that with Him, everything is possible.
Like any student, I am not perfect. There are days I would rather have fun than study, sleep than read, and daydream than to focus. I’ve always been struggling to prioritize my needs over wants; this was the worst mistake I did in my university life.
Easy said than done, getting over my past is not easy as everyone can say. I feel haunted by simple mistakes affecting my present, even my future. It is regretful to look at the hands of the clock ticking before you, as people who used to be with you are moving forward yet the gravity is holding against you, preventing you from taking a step forward. That gravity is haunting me.