So I’ve been waiting a day to happened, since every time matters to me and in a snap, the day I’ve been waiting will be the worst day of my college life.

I was like, so he’s that type of person; I was seriously attached to him, and I even made a poem and recited it to him in class. I was once felt we’re destined in some ways.

Thinking he’s like the person I’ve been loving and missing, I was able to do stuffs I usually dont do. But after last nigh (August 27, 2011), I swear with God as my witnesses. This feeling / affection must die. He’s not into him. And he’s not HIM! They are different.

I was really offended by him and I was turned=off! Now, all I have t work out, is focus on the anger and kill the remaining him in my heart.


For a person like me, who always think first of her future… I’m really depressed thinking that I can’t think of any future ahead of me.

There are some unexpected things that I am expecting to happen in my life. Before, I am so sure and planned with my future. But now, everything is blurry. And honestly, I can see a dark future ahead of me.

I still want to think positively. Because, I’ve been talking to God and asking him to please make a better story plot for my life.