The realization that you can write a thousand words and sing a thousand lyrics when you are in pain But words do not come out, when you're happy and contented because you know that no words can describe the happiness you are in right now. i still can think of anything to write. pardon me.
It is your life and you know the consequences of every actions you will do. Break free and do all the things you want, if you're sad then whatever reason that can make you happy; be happy doing them as if they are the solutions to the answers you're looking for.